Faith

I think faith is a weird thing. So illusive, it has so many meaning to people, but essentially means the same thing. Also, EVERYONE has faith, although some would never admit it, you have faith in SOMETHING.

Sometimes I feel like my faith is so engrained in my life I forget that it is what is driving me, helping me make decisions, the reason why I do things it has truly shaped me as a person. Without my faith I really don’t know what I would do, what would be the reason for things, and what would I think when I see snow or rain or sunsets, mountains, ice cream, or anything. Without even thinking about it throughout the day I talk to God in my head. Sometimes more serious conversations sometimes just AHHHH I got a great parking space “Thanks God!”.

I always feel like I am not a very “Christiany” person. You won’t find me out talking to everyone about God, unless someone asks me something. You won’t find me always doing devotions, reading the Bible, listening to Christian music, or “praying” in the traditional sense of the word. I would love to incorporate more of those things into my everyday life, but if I am honest those are not things that I would be known for. However, I think people all have their own walks with God and faith. I don’t think I am one of those people who checks the boxes like: did I pray today “CHECK”, did I do my daily devotions “CHECK”…Ok I’m good. I think I am more constantly living with God – why do I need a specific time to pray when I am talking to God throughout the day. I do agree, however, I need to spend more concentrated time with God – that’s something I am working on. To me though sometimes the people who check the boxes don’t appear to be living with God, it seems when they are not in a “check the box” moment everything they say they stand for goes out the window.

I guess I need to re-define my “Christiany” definition. I think faith and religion and especially relationships with God are awesome because everyone has their own. Just like marriages or friendships, I wouldn’t want some other people’s marriage, I don’t understand it, but it works for them and I am sure they wouldn’t want mine. And I always try to remember that just because I don’t understand it doesn’t mean it’s wrong. (one of my favorite quotes is “Not Wrong, Just Different”) I think that is awesome that God made us to have different relationships and that he can have an intimate one with all of us, in all our different types of relationships. No one else could ever do that. Amazing.

Just something I have been thinking about lately.