We went to the Dr. on Friday and got an ultrasound. The babe is 4mm big and had a heartbeat of 118bpm. It boggles my mind that that is inside of me and will transform into an actual person. It was Jared's first time at the "Girl Dr", he handled it well. Looking around like a child trying to figure out what everything was.
So here is our little guy/girl:
I have decided that I really don't like situations where I am "supposed to" feel some way or act someway. I felt this way when I was engaged too. When people find out I am pregnant I just say, "yeah thank you". I don't jump up and down, my face isn't beaming with joy, I kinda would rather just say Thanks, and then move on to something else. Everyone then says..."are you happy, are you excited?" in an awkward way.
Don't get me wrong Jared and I are very happy, but we just don't show it by jumping up and down or wanting to talk about it all the time. As we said before it is a part of our life, not our whole life. We have plenty of other things going, and I feel like, a bazillion other people are pregnant and have been pregnant before. I don't feel like it is anything NEW and I don't expect people to be blown away or so interested in me being pregnant.
Jared and I have our own private talks about it, but we honestly don't talk about it too much yet either. As Jared said the other day, "what are we supposed to do run home and get the room ready?" There is just so much time before things happen a long way to go. I am sure as it gets more "real" - my belly grows, something that resembles a human shows up on the ultrasound, etc things will be different, but for now we are just living our normal life - with some added bland food and a little less Pepsi. :)
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