You know all the people that say "Enjoy this time it won't last long"...I agree, but I have found that I have no problem remembering this with Tenley. I get a little sad every night thinking that another day with Tenley is over and it's time I will never get back with her. Every time I snuggle her, I soak it up, cherishing it because I know that soon enough she will be big and not able to snuggle so tightly, nor will she want to. I love that I have to carry her from place to place, that I know how to help her when she is crying, that she LOVES to talk to me and look at me, and that I can make her smile all the time. She's not running to her friends to tell them stories, she is telling me. She doesn't have a boyfriend that she wants to do things with, she doesn't have a car to drive away in. She is totally dependent on me and I love it. She looks to me to tell her she is doing a great job from across the room when she is in her Jumperoo and I love when she sees her dad and gives off the biggest smile. I don't like her even moving up to the next clothes size, it just makes me think of all the moments we have already had that I will never get back.
Everyday just seems so important, I don't want to miss anything and I want to cuddle her and kiss her all day. I love every little noise she makes and try to burn it into my memory. I am taking movies and pictures but I just know it will never be the same.
So I AM enjoying every moment, even in the moments where Tenley is crying and crying there is nothing I would rather be then Tenley's mom at that moment - cause it won't last for long and I want to be there for her as much as I can. I am looking forward to when she can walk, talk, do things with me, go on trips and enjoy it, but there is time for all that...right now I am just happy for every moment and every snuggle I get and I never want it to end. Oh and I now hate all the country songs that talk about this sort of thing..they make me sad.
Love my little girl!
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