Future Kids

I am already feeling bad about future kids...You know the oldest one always has the nicest baby book, the professional pictures and then by the 3-4th kid you are lucky if you have like 2 pictures of them. (I know I am the third).  I told Jared that I already feel bad for our 2nd and 3rd kid because they aren't going to get the time and things that Tenley gets.  When I am sitting in Tenley's room with her snuggling and just reading her books, I just started thinking, if I had 1 or 2 kids running around I would not be able to do that all the time, or just sit in her chair with her talking and snuggling.  We also of course got pictures taken of her already, I have a calendar for her where I can write down a memory or "milestone" on the day it happened - I thought it would be cool to be able to look back at.  I also write Tenley letters when I feel so inspired - just about what she is doing, what I think about her, how much her Dad and I love her - all those things.    I am 99% sure those things will not happen for future kids...however I decided that that doesn't mean I shouldn't do it for Tenley, so SORRY future kids.

I also think about Tenley and when we have more kids she will not be getting all the time she does now, and I think of all the moments already that I just want to soak up, and I don't want to miss anything.  I realize how I will never get these moments back and she is only going to be this small one time, each day is the only day like that day I will ever get with her - so when we have more kids - think of all the things I am going to miss.

This doesn't really stress me out or anything, just something I think about.  I know that we will have so many good memories.

Just my thoughts for the day.